Comments on: Depression Take II

By: Jeri

Jeri — Fri, 19 Jun 2009 04:39:00 +0000

Gene, I’m so glad you’re ok now and that you beat it. You’re on for dinner!

Michelle – same to you but more of it. You’ve helped keep me sane in spite of your own travails…

Kim, ditto, and if I can help in any way with some of the similar stuff you’re wrestling with right now please let me know!

By: kim

kim — Fri, 19 Jun 2009 01:44:35 +0000

“I felt a despair fall over me, as if a piece of the Snow Queen’s mirror had fallen into my eyes…”

I know THIS mirror, and while I try to fool myself that I am able to just not look, it is only a matter of time before my own reflection is there before me.

Know that you are loved, by all of us here in the shiny box, and I am glad that you were able to find a counselor that “fit”

By: Random Michelle

Random Michelle — Fri, 19 Jun 2009 00:51:55 +0000

Love you Jeri!

By: Gene

Gene — Thu, 18 Jun 2009 22:45:19 +0000

Hey Jeri!!

I have only been suicidally depressed once, I attempted 6 times in 5 weeks and stopped right at the last second! I then figured out I had 2 choice 1) succeed and die or 2) get help. I opted for help, I can say without a doubt it was my therapist that I have to thank today for me being here (and everyone else to curse for me being here!! LOL) If it was not for him I would not be my usual pain in the backside self!

I am very happy that you are here and with us!!! Next time you are in Anchortown or I am in Seattle we need to run away and have dinner or something!!!

Hugs!!

By: Jeri

Jeri — Thu, 18 Jun 2009 22:07:16 +0000

Chris, thank you for the encouragement!

Eric, I think, maybe, I am ok. And it surprises me to look in the mirror and be able to say that.

Celeste, it’s mutual.

By: Celeste

Celeste — Thu, 18 Jun 2009 22:04:08 +0000

thank you Jeri, as always you are an inspiration

By: Eric

Eric — Thu, 18 Jun 2009 21:24:10 +0000

As always, I hope you’re okay….

By: Chris

Chris — Thu, 18 Jun 2009 20:49:48 +0000

Jeri,
I’ve been reading all of your posts since you went through this loss, and I’d say that, from the sound of it, you are a very strong person and have a great support network as well. Many people might fold in on themselve when presented with a situation like yours; it’s something I think about a lot in terms of my own wife, and what I would do if something like this ever happened to me. Stay strong and soldier on.

By: Jeri

Jeri — Thu, 18 Jun 2009 20:20:01 +0000

Ah, Vince, I was hoping my statement wouldn’t come across that way! I can’t judge another’s pain. And it’s not that I don’t think of the option when things are blackest, I just could never in any conceivable permutation of my thinking abdicate my responsibility to my family that way.

I’m so glad that you made it through and are in a balanced state right now. ::hugs::

By: Vince

Vince — Thu, 18 Jun 2009 19:25:00 +0000

Cautiously hopeful. I like that phrase.

While I have down periods, I am pretty fortunate in that I have rarely been affected by what I would truly call depression. But when it happens, it’s not good. Twice in my life I have had bouts of suicidal depression, the second bad enough that I actually loaded a gun and considered pulling the trigger. This was during my divorce. I understand your view of suicide, but I can tell you the pain that drives you to the point where you consider it a viable solution to how and what you feel pretty much overwhelms all other feelings and rational thought. That’s not a criticism, simply an observation from one who walked (very unwillingly) that path. Counseling and Zoloft almost certainly saved my life. A very, very bad place to be.

Antidepressants have a bad reputation in some circles. It’s true that they generally have some potentially significant side effects, and aren’t a panacea, but they save people’s lives, both literally and figuratively.

I’m really glad that through some really tough times you’re doing well. Go you!